Post by isabella swan on Apr 6, 2009 14:55:15 GMT
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( ISABELLA SWAN )
i loved you, i‘ve loved you all along
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- - - I DARE SAY THAT I'VE HEARD OF YOU BEFORE. REMIND ME AGAIN, WHAT'S THE NAME YOUR PARENTS GAVE YOU, ANY SIGNIFICANCE ?
“My name is Isabella Marie Swan, and really I don’t know the background of it, at all. I mean I can look it up? Ok ok I’ll do that. Ok Isabella means ’God Is My Vow’… Ok not sure if my parents knew that when they picked it. As for Marie well that means bitter apparently. God I hope my parents didn’t know that when they chose it. Hopefully it was just a plump for thing.”
- - - REMIND ME AGAIN, WHEN WERE YOU BORN ? I CAN NEVER GET ENOUGH OF THE STORY SURROUNDING YOUR BIRTH
“I was born on September 13th 1987. Eighteen years later I died that day, well technically anyway. On the day I was born apparently it was sunny and there wasn‘t a cloud in the sky, but I don‘t believe it as I was born in forks. Where there is always a cloud of some sort in the sky. Anyway Mom started getting contractions and Dad drove her to the hospital, it was pretty easy birth apparently. I just appeared in the world. Nothing more to it.”
- - - CHRIST YOU DON'T LOOK FAMILIAR, DO YOU LIVE IN THESE PARTS?
“I used to, before I died. Well technically I still live in Forks, just everyone thinks I am missing so I can‘t leave the house. I‘m originally from Forks, then moved to Phoenix in Arizona when Mom and Dad split up.”
- - - SO WE KNOW THIS IS GONNA SOUND STRANGE, BUT WHAT EXACTLY ARE YOU?”Used to be human, then Jasper lost control on my eighteenth and I‘m an honorary vampire. Yay!”
- - - OKAY, BE HONEST HERE. WHICH ARE YOU IN TO MORE: GUYS OR DOLLS ? DON'T WORRY, MY LIPS ARE SEALED
“Edward. He is my entire sexuality. Which I guess makes me straight.”
- - - ALRIGHT, ON TO THE GOOD STUFF. WHAT DO YOU DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME ? ANY FAVORITE PASTIMES
“Reading, Edward, avoiding Alice when she tries to go shopping, listening to music and running now.”
- - - TELL ME: WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE THINGS IN THE ENTIRE WORLD ? THINGS THAT JUST MAKE YOU WANT TO SMILE
“Edward, Alice, my Mom, my Dad, Phil.”
- - - AND SADLY, WE ALL KNOW THERE ARE THINGS WE JUST CAN'T STAND. WHAT ARE YOUR'S
“Victoria, shopping, being used as a Barbie doll, gossips and the smell of blood.”
- - - ANY SHORT OR LONG TERM GOALS ? WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF IN FIVE YEARS ? IN TEN ? HOW DO YOU PLAN TO GET THERE
“Not kill anybody. That is my main ambition at the moment. I have forever to do everything that I want, so I‘m not really sure where I stand at the moment with regards to what I want from the future. I just want to be with Edward and learn how to get control of everything.”
- - - WHAT MAKES YOU QUAKE IN YOUR BOOTS ? IF YOU HAD TO PICK ONE THING THAT HAS SCARED YOU THE MOST, WHAT WOULD IT BE
“The idea of anyone hurting someone I love. Like Edward or Alice.”
- - - IS THERE A SIGNIFICANT OTHER IN YOUR LIFE ? HOW DO YOU DO WITH RELATIONSHIPS
“Edward, he‘s the centre of my world, and now I‘m a vampire we can be together forever and a day. I never want to let him go and now I‘m strong enough to hold onto him which is great.”
- - - NOW, YOU KNOW THAT I ADORE YOU, BUT LET'S TALK ABOUT SOME OTHER PEOPLE FOR A BIT. A LITTLE BIRD TOLD ME THAT YOU HAVE SOME PRETTY INTERESTING PARENTS, WHO ARE THEY AND WHAT ARE THEY LIKE
“Haha my parents interesting!? Yeah I guess they sort of are. Well my Mom is a great, she‘s called Renee and she recently got remarried to a guy called Phil. They both live in California now as Phil is a baseball player and got signed just before I ended up in Hospital for the first time. Yeah so they are happy now. As for my Dad well he is Charlie Swan, the police chief? I don‘t have any idea how he is at the moment because he thinks I‘m missing and I don‘t how he‘s dealing with it.”
- - - ANY OTHER IMPORTANT PEOPLE IN YOUR FAMILY ? DID YOUR PARENTS HAVE ANY OTHER CHILDREN
“I‘m an only child as my parents weren‘t together long enough after my birth to have any. Maybe Mom and Phil will have some, not that I‘ll ever meet them now of course.”
- - - HOW ABOUT PETS, HOW MANY DO YOU HAVE
“I might eat them if I had a pet, so I don’t bother.”
- - - OKAY, YOU HAVE TO HAVE KNOWN THAT WE WERE GOING TO ASK. WHAT'S YOUR BEST KEPT SECRET ? I WON'T TELL
“The fact that I am not missing. I’m still exactly where I was left, just because I’m different I’m not allowed around people.”- - - - - - - - - - -Hey there shades of grey. my name is BETH and I've been roleplaying for FIVE years. I'm SEVENTEEN years old, and I found you through KATIE AND THE POKING. If you need to hit me up, you know you can always reach me though PM ME As you can see, I enjoy using KRISTEN STEWART as a play-by. Oh, and if you want to see what I can do, check out the role play sample. Yeah, I'm awesome. I know.
valkyrie could clearly remember the first day she spent in deacon's company, it would always stick in her mind because it was almost a caricature type situation. she'd wandered in off the street with her bag as always and the first thing one of the nurses had told her was that she had a new patient to take on, and this one really needed her attention, more than her others. she was briefed on his condition and she accepted it with a nod, not questioning it as she hadn't really understood what he was doing there in the first place, until they'd said about collapsing and she'd realised how far it had gone. that moment had been the sigh moment. having never really had a problem with her weight, her swimming made sure of that, vallie found it very hard to understand how anorexia got a grip, but she knew from past experience how tight it could hold on. one of her best friends, female, had been diagnosed when she was fifteen - desperate to get onto the cheerleading squad and scared that if she didn't lose all the weight she didn't. she hadn't bothered to just ask valkyrie, who was the captain at that time, for a spot. it was as if she had feared she couldn't come to the blonde. everyone's first impression of her was the stereotypical one, that just wasn't her. yes she cheerleaded, but she wasn't an up her own arse bitch. people made all sorts of assumptions about people and it just led to more problems. don't judge before you know. it was an old saying but one that valkyrie made sure that she lived by because there was always something underneath the surface of whoever she was talking to, no matter how nice they were.
when she had first walked into his room the size of him had shocked her to her very core, though she did her best to hide it behind her overly cheerful mask. it didn't do to be shy in front of new patients, but the look on his face hadn't exactly helped her relax. he'd looked as if he were ready to murder someone, and she had prayed vehmently that he wouldn't pick her as his target. she knew he had plenty of reason to be angry, especially as he didn't seem to realise that he was the one with the problem, but there was nothing she could do to get him out so yes she had thought it was a bit unfair for him to take out his snappiness on her. valley had left the room wondering if she would ever have to re-enter it again, and had it not been for the persistent pushing of a nurse called eden she wouldn't have done. the older woman had explained that he was probably very sorry for the snapiness and that vallie should give him another choice, so she had returned, though still fully expecting to be snapped at. however it was the exact difference. he'd apologised, seemed much more mellow with the idea of her being around him, so she had happily sat down by the side of his bed, though the tension in the room was still palable, and she knew quite a bit of it was coming from her not him. she had not understood his condition back then, she was ashamed to say that for that first hour she herself had been blinded by stereotyping - wondered how on earth a guy could get into the position so commonly assumed only girls suffered from. she had allowed past experience to blind her, and now when she looked back on it she was ashamed of the way she had acted, it was unforgiveable. valley was lucky that he either hadn't noticed or hadn't cared. if he had they wouldn't have had the time to form such an amazing friendship. they connected. vallie didn't believe in soulmates, she believed in people who shared different kinds of connections. that was that. and her's and deacons was a bond of very strong friendship. hers and her boyfriends was one of love. hers and tanith's was one of strength - all as important to her but just different. any one of them could have been coined with the word 'soul mate'. a soul mate was just a person you felt comfortable with enough to know they knew what you were thinking and how far you were willing to go in a certain situation. nothing mystical and out there. just comfort.
sitting there staring at him she smiled softly at his words. it was a shame there had to be so much of a fight every single time it came to feeding. valkyrie wished on every star in the heavens that he would realise he had a problem and let someone help him through it. god even she would hold her hand up for that job if he asked for it to be done. she'd spend hours coaxing him through it if she had to. there were people that cared a lot about him, and he just couldn't seem to understand what the problem was. it was heartbreaking. at one point she had been seriously tempted to sneak in one night and attack him with a creambun or something of that manner. something that had a load of calories and at least one addictive ingredient. yeah maybe that was the answer, maybe they should get him addicted to something and then ween him off it once he had gained the weight. according to his chart he had already gained a bit, but not enough to satisfy anyone at the hospital. it was clear that there methods weren't working, maybe they should have a go at hers which might. sneaking was always better than blatantly asking when blatantly asking didn't work. they should have learnt that from some of her other patients. such as the old lady that refused pain medication unless it was herbal. vallie had got her some herbal stuff, then injected them with a little dose of something not so herbal to make sure they actually worked. sure it was against the code of practice, but she wasn't a doctor yet therefore the same rules didn't apply to her. to get what she wanted valkyrie had to plot carefully, in that sense she was the living epitome of her name. she was a walking breathing plan.
pushing herself up more so she could use his shoulder as a better headrest she listened to the joke he made, the zoo metaphor something that never failed to amuse her. she knew it was wrong, she should be encouraging him very loudly to accept the help he was being offered, to face up to the fact he had a problem. that was what his notes instructed. but she knew deep down that he had enough of that from the nurses and the doctors that were forever bustling through his room like ants. he'd talk when he was ready, he'd accept help when he was ready. she just really hoped that was before he popped his clogs for good. to starve ones body could kill you, and she didn't want to see him waste away to nothing. the nurses were doing their job, but in valley's mind they weren't doing enough. if method a doesn't work you move to method b. having always been a very intelligent child she had ideas, ideas that some people would never even think of. and even if it killed her she was going to turn that incredible brain to a way to help deacon with his issue. "maybe if they fed you some real food she wouldn't have to." she concured, remembering at one point that he had complained about the state of the crap they served to him before, and she couldn't agree more. if you have someone recovering from anorexia they need nice, solid and more than anything high in nutrients, like a sub from the shop down the road, the very shop that valkyrie often visited on her lunchbreak, always stopping to chat to the owner as he made her her sandwich. nudging him gently in the ribs with a playful sticking out of her tongue valley made sure to break the tension away from his condition and back to other matters. she sort of guessed he didn't like talking about it much, and she was not his doctor so didn't need to force the subject.
at his apparent delight at the book she grinned, her tone jokey, taking on an accent so not her own but remenant of someone that had said the same thing once. "we're on the same brainwave man." her face was curved into a bright smile, "we're connected." she gave his hand a squeeze to add even more humour to the words she was saying. trust was something beautiful between people, and valkyrie was pleased that she seemed to have gained his. that was all she had set out to do in the beginning, just make him trust her. she hadn't been looking for the bond they now shared. but she was happy to find it. her eyes flicked to the tv screen as she watched the dog get hit by the car, and then ned resusitate it. she always found it hard to watch that little critter lying there and flinched slightly when it happened, but then broke back into a smile when the dog was up and running again. valley had a dog just like the one on the screen, an affectionate labrador she sometimes wished she could bring in to cheer the patients up. if there was anyone that could make you smile it was maxie, he was the cutest little, well big now, thing. she'd had him since he was a puppy. her eyes moved back to deacon as he began to talk again and she listened to what he had to say with a nod. she had heard some horror stories about the feeding times they forced him through, why couldn't they just see it wasn't working? or hand his feeding over to her? she'd even pay for the stuff out of her own pocket, nice stuff he actually might be tempted to eat. healthy food that wouldn't make him fat but would put a bit of muscle on his bones. "that's cool, i've got to pop out and get my own lunch at some point anyway, i'll come back after to clean up whoever you murder." she giggled as she tilted her head against his chin smoothly before settling back down to where she had been laying, very relaxed despite how boney his shoulder is. "actually i have an idea," she began as she lifted her head to look at him, her eyes twinkling with the sudden lightbulb that had flashed above her head and illuminated them. "i'll pick you something as well, they do this great sub that's filled with like all kinds of salady bits, would you prefer that to the mush they feed you in here? then i could tell the nurses not to bother coming in as i'd have sorted it?" her tone was hopeful. the sub was not filled with calories, apparently it took more to energy to eat it than the amount of calories actually in it, but it was packed with all the good things that could make him a little stronger, little healthier, without gaining weight. if she sorted the health first, and the aversion to eating, then she could focus on the weight. anorexia was a two coined illness, you had to pick one to deal with first or you would never crack it.
when she had first walked into his room the size of him had shocked her to her very core, though she did her best to hide it behind her overly cheerful mask. it didn't do to be shy in front of new patients, but the look on his face hadn't exactly helped her relax. he'd looked as if he were ready to murder someone, and she had prayed vehmently that he wouldn't pick her as his target. she knew he had plenty of reason to be angry, especially as he didn't seem to realise that he was the one with the problem, but there was nothing she could do to get him out so yes she had thought it was a bit unfair for him to take out his snappiness on her. valley had left the room wondering if she would ever have to re-enter it again, and had it not been for the persistent pushing of a nurse called eden she wouldn't have done. the older woman had explained that he was probably very sorry for the snapiness and that vallie should give him another choice, so she had returned, though still fully expecting to be snapped at. however it was the exact difference. he'd apologised, seemed much more mellow with the idea of her being around him, so she had happily sat down by the side of his bed, though the tension in the room was still palable, and she knew quite a bit of it was coming from her not him. she had not understood his condition back then, she was ashamed to say that for that first hour she herself had been blinded by stereotyping - wondered how on earth a guy could get into the position so commonly assumed only girls suffered from. she had allowed past experience to blind her, and now when she looked back on it she was ashamed of the way she had acted, it was unforgiveable. valley was lucky that he either hadn't noticed or hadn't cared. if he had they wouldn't have had the time to form such an amazing friendship. they connected. vallie didn't believe in soulmates, she believed in people who shared different kinds of connections. that was that. and her's and deacons was a bond of very strong friendship. hers and her boyfriends was one of love. hers and tanith's was one of strength - all as important to her but just different. any one of them could have been coined with the word 'soul mate'. a soul mate was just a person you felt comfortable with enough to know they knew what you were thinking and how far you were willing to go in a certain situation. nothing mystical and out there. just comfort.
sitting there staring at him she smiled softly at his words. it was a shame there had to be so much of a fight every single time it came to feeding. valkyrie wished on every star in the heavens that he would realise he had a problem and let someone help him through it. god even she would hold her hand up for that job if he asked for it to be done. she'd spend hours coaxing him through it if she had to. there were people that cared a lot about him, and he just couldn't seem to understand what the problem was. it was heartbreaking. at one point she had been seriously tempted to sneak in one night and attack him with a creambun or something of that manner. something that had a load of calories and at least one addictive ingredient. yeah maybe that was the answer, maybe they should get him addicted to something and then ween him off it once he had gained the weight. according to his chart he had already gained a bit, but not enough to satisfy anyone at the hospital. it was clear that there methods weren't working, maybe they should have a go at hers which might. sneaking was always better than blatantly asking when blatantly asking didn't work. they should have learnt that from some of her other patients. such as the old lady that refused pain medication unless it was herbal. vallie had got her some herbal stuff, then injected them with a little dose of something not so herbal to make sure they actually worked. sure it was against the code of practice, but she wasn't a doctor yet therefore the same rules didn't apply to her. to get what she wanted valkyrie had to plot carefully, in that sense she was the living epitome of her name. she was a walking breathing plan.
pushing herself up more so she could use his shoulder as a better headrest she listened to the joke he made, the zoo metaphor something that never failed to amuse her. she knew it was wrong, she should be encouraging him very loudly to accept the help he was being offered, to face up to the fact he had a problem. that was what his notes instructed. but she knew deep down that he had enough of that from the nurses and the doctors that were forever bustling through his room like ants. he'd talk when he was ready, he'd accept help when he was ready. she just really hoped that was before he popped his clogs for good. to starve ones body could kill you, and she didn't want to see him waste away to nothing. the nurses were doing their job, but in valley's mind they weren't doing enough. if method a doesn't work you move to method b. having always been a very intelligent child she had ideas, ideas that some people would never even think of. and even if it killed her she was going to turn that incredible brain to a way to help deacon with his issue. "maybe if they fed you some real food she wouldn't have to." she concured, remembering at one point that he had complained about the state of the crap they served to him before, and she couldn't agree more. if you have someone recovering from anorexia they need nice, solid and more than anything high in nutrients, like a sub from the shop down the road, the very shop that valkyrie often visited on her lunchbreak, always stopping to chat to the owner as he made her her sandwich. nudging him gently in the ribs with a playful sticking out of her tongue valley made sure to break the tension away from his condition and back to other matters. she sort of guessed he didn't like talking about it much, and she was not his doctor so didn't need to force the subject.
at his apparent delight at the book she grinned, her tone jokey, taking on an accent so not her own but remenant of someone that had said the same thing once. "we're on the same brainwave man." her face was curved into a bright smile, "we're connected." she gave his hand a squeeze to add even more humour to the words she was saying. trust was something beautiful between people, and valkyrie was pleased that she seemed to have gained his. that was all she had set out to do in the beginning, just make him trust her. she hadn't been looking for the bond they now shared. but she was happy to find it. her eyes flicked to the tv screen as she watched the dog get hit by the car, and then ned resusitate it. she always found it hard to watch that little critter lying there and flinched slightly when it happened, but then broke back into a smile when the dog was up and running again. valley had a dog just like the one on the screen, an affectionate labrador she sometimes wished she could bring in to cheer the patients up. if there was anyone that could make you smile it was maxie, he was the cutest little, well big now, thing. she'd had him since he was a puppy. her eyes moved back to deacon as he began to talk again and she listened to what he had to say with a nod. she had heard some horror stories about the feeding times they forced him through, why couldn't they just see it wasn't working? or hand his feeding over to her? she'd even pay for the stuff out of her own pocket, nice stuff he actually might be tempted to eat. healthy food that wouldn't make him fat but would put a bit of muscle on his bones. "that's cool, i've got to pop out and get my own lunch at some point anyway, i'll come back after to clean up whoever you murder." she giggled as she tilted her head against his chin smoothly before settling back down to where she had been laying, very relaxed despite how boney his shoulder is. "actually i have an idea," she began as she lifted her head to look at him, her eyes twinkling with the sudden lightbulb that had flashed above her head and illuminated them. "i'll pick you something as well, they do this great sub that's filled with like all kinds of salady bits, would you prefer that to the mush they feed you in here? then i could tell the nurses not to bother coming in as i'd have sorted it?" her tone was hopeful. the sub was not filled with calories, apparently it took more to energy to eat it than the amount of calories actually in it, but it was packed with all the good things that could make him a little stronger, little healthier, without gaining weight. if she sorted the health first, and the aversion to eating, then she could focus on the weight. anorexia was a two coined illness, you had to pick one to deal with first or you would never crack it.
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